Kelly: The aforementioned snowflakes, darkness, and coldness have collectively been my archnemesis since arriving in Germany. Alone, each has its place; I enjoy the snow (when it doesn't prevent me from traveling); I enjoy the darkness when I am sleeping and star-gazing; I even enjoy the cold when I'm curled up next to the fireplace with my purring cat and warm-blooded husband. HOWEVER, when all three descend upon me...it is too much to take!
Warning: What follows is a bit of a rant...hopefully a cathartic one.
I leave for work in the dark and return 10 hours later in the dark. The cold has been bone-chilling and unrelenting even for the warm-blooded husband. I enjoy the snow that we've received...the most I've seen since the blizzard in Owings Mills but when the roads are not cleared or treated, we are stuck in our house. My normal cold-weather, snowy, darktime hobbies have been exhausted...I can't bear to make one more batch of lentil soup, drink one more mug of tea, play one more game of Yahtzee, or have one more online store write to tell me that they won't ship my carefully-purchased items to an APO address. This is not why I moved to Germany. Could someone have warned me about this? "It will be better in the spring," my coworkers tell me. Do they know that spring in Germany is still 3 months away? Ugh. When I try to look at the situation positively or therapeutically, I can see that I am lucky to have this job and this experience. Lucky that friends and family have been supportive and have sent packages and cards. Lucky that my husband is turning out to be the metrosexual version of Martha Stewart, and lucky that my cat is happy here. Doctors are the worst patients and therapists are the worst clients, so unfortunately, I'm not buying my happy reframes. On the upside, the griping does make good fodder for blogging....now I'm off to shovel, which I actually enjoy...go figure.
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